Extreme Rant Vol 2 Ch 2 :: SAT 2 chemistry :: dance everybody!

the last week of my life has been hectic. I have had some very good experiences, and some very thoughtful moments. I've gotten to know the people around me.

Today, i feel blank. I want to tell you things that i cant, because there would never be words that are appropriate enough. Even the smallest of my emotions have been magnified. i can feel.

Maybe it is this state of exhaustion that has led me to let my guard down, but i like it. Tomorrow, i shall wake up, with a hundred reasons to give up. And i know that i will have to wait. I want to know what will be, but i must be patient.

As thoughts fill up my mind, i feel the need to pour them out. a place where i can preserve them forever. But each time i put them down on paper, their meaning is lost. That's when i realize that these thoughts are meant for me and me alone... i sit in front of someone, in silence, thinking of the words to use.... blank.

There's this emotion. Simplicity, Blank.

Poetry for the faint hearted - The Unicorns Ride

I'm not one to post poetry online, because it loses a lot of majesty and feeling when read on a computer monitor... but it has been a while... and i feel the need to update...

this poem is one of my favourites... it is soft, touching and colourful...

The Unicorn's Ride

Over your rainbow
A unicorn flew,
He was sent to find me...
He said by you.
"Climb aboard", he whispered,
"We must go for a ride..."
And into a portal of light
We rode inside.
The sky was so blue,
The fields so green,
With each explosion of light
Was a wonderful scene.
So happy we seem
And always together,
There was no end to your dream,
It just went on forever.
Then the unicorn said
"I have one more surprise..."
So we took off quickly
And pierced the sky.
Then I saw you sleeping
And dreaming in your bed...
I caressed your hair gently
And kissed you on your head.
The unicorn interrupted...
"I must now get you home,
But now that you've seen her dream,
May you never feel alone."
My heart is feeling heavy,
A fire burns inside.
Thank you so much my darling
For the unicorn's ride.

- Eric R. Hughes -

Extreme rant vol 2 ch 1 A spot to think

Theres this feeling... like when you eat a handful of of sugar... you shake, tremble... tremble.... laughter is easy to come by... theres this feeling

a smile withheld, it feels nice that you can smile... a look in your eye, a look withheld... pure joy!! Theres no other word for it! JOY!!!

When everything seems to fit.... NO!!!

when there is nothing to fit!!! THERE IS NOTHING AT ALL!!!!!

life is like a donut! sweeeet... when i am eating my donut... i don't care about what is happening around me! i am SELFISH as ever!! a sheepish smile... a trembling leg.....

The pure joy of seeing joy in someone else's eyes.... Shandy come running up to me... tongue hanging out... pure joy!!!! theres no other word for it!!! JOY!! i felt it .. it was unavoidable...

Every person has a special spot to think.... a place of complete solitary... a place of complete silence.... i found my spot yesterday... it was on the tennis court... not in the middle of the tennis court... but in a corner, on the side... where i was picking up tennis balls... those who play the sport will relate...

nyhu... its not important where this spot was.... its what i felt there... breathing came easy... concentration was no effort... and i became crystal clear... simply because i didn't need to understand me... just like when you eat a handful of sugar at once....the feeling... the feeling.

p.s done in a hurry... just how i felt right here and now... so don't think too much into it :P:P

Extreme Rant Vol I Ch 5 ...... What the hell is he smoking?

there's this emotion... i don't know what to call it... i can try and describe it... but i would have to use words that only i know of.

It makes me smile but i know it is not happiness. It makes me sad but i know it is not sadness.

Harmony. Such a sweet word. Rhythm. Groove.

What is harmony? or rather, what does it stand for? Have you ever experienced harmony? The sweet strange sensation that is more than seen, more than heard, more than felt.
A shiver runs down my spine as i close my eyes, and look up into the heavens. A smile. A world without questions. A world without answers, and yet, a world without ignorance. light. darkness. light. darkness.

Do i understand? Should i understand?

I feel a sudden jolt of pain. It feels like death. it disappears in an instant. calmness overcomes my body... The tension of my muscles fade... I feel relaxed.

I am scared to open my eyes so i keep them shut, but i can still see.

I see a flower, swaying in the wind. It is red, beautiful, but i feel emptiness.
I see a shadow. A shadow in the dark. Vast.
I see raindrops, falling like little stars. I can feel them as they hit my face.

There's this emotion, It makes me smile but i know it is not happiness. It makes me sad but i know it is not sadness.

Shameful

theres this emotion... i don't know what to call it... it can best be described as desire, but not quite enough. Anxiousness? Paradox?

It makes me smile but i know it is not happiness. It makes me sad but i know it is not sadness.

theres a certain entity that exists within all of us... something called our conscience. Have you ever done something, or felt something that you know was purely wrong? A thought that pops up in your head for a split moment...
And for that moment, you hate yourself... you are not at peace with yourself at all. And because of this, you are not at peace with anyone, or anything.

You feel hot. You are burning... you avoid all eye contact. You give an outwardly sheepish smile... but inside you are thinking "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???"

theres this emotion.....