theres this emotion... i don't know what to call it... it can best be described as desire, but not quite enough. Anxiousness? Paradox?
It makes me smile but i know it is not happiness. It makes me sad but i know it is not sadness.
theres a certain entity that exists within all of us... something called our conscience. Have you ever done something, or felt something that you know was purely wrong? A thought that pops up in your head for a split moment...
And for that moment, you hate yourself... you are not at peace with yourself at all. And because of this, you are not at peace with anyone, or anything.
You feel hot. You are burning... you avoid all eye contact. You give an outwardly sheepish smile... but inside you are thinking "WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME???"
theres this emotion.....
