Extreme Rant Vol 2 Ch 3 - If i had a candle

if i had a candle, what would i do with it? i would light it. watch the flame. The flame is.... enchanting. all phylo bull aside... real emos in play... i feel nice. i feel calm. i am watching the flame... concentrating on it... blocking out everything else. i feel its warmth.i can close my eyes, and still picture it in my head. in the infinite darkness, a candle burns, glows, illuminating the space around it, but its light is swallwed by the darkness.

Someone walks into the room...i look up from the candle, battling my fascination. this person begins to talk. She talks about the future, she talks about the past. i feel a pang of guilt... the candle is burning out, and she cannot see it.

That flame is gone now. I wish i could feel its warmth once again, but i feel nothing.

The regret sets in... *it was so perfect, i felt so nice... where did it go?*

The longing comes next... *will there ever be anyone who can share that warmth with me? will there ever be anyone who will understand?*

i dont feel like talking.... i feel quiet... so i say nothing.