Flying High Rant... Overwhelmed

There are so man things I want to write about right now. There is so much happening in the world around me and well even though I might not get much time to sit and reflect, I know I’m excited.. But there is this emotion, this awesome godlike force that becomes a realization, an enlightenment in my most silent moments. There is this emotion and I can finally put a word to it. Overwhelmed.

For me, it starts with the end. The end will always be that one universal bind, the calmness of knowing that this will all end for us the same way it began. The moment of our birth, the first nanoseconds of our existence, it was exactly the same for me as it was for you. There was no judgment. There was no personality, no boundary, no thought except for one. Breath.

And at the end, at that last breath, we are united again on a sweet harmonious chord like the crescendo of a six billion-piece orchestra.

The in between of these two epitomes of states, the present, it is both tarnished and garnished by an illusion created by appearances and heavy words, swaying your thoughts with ideas of control and power and understanding. You are forced to an opinion, forced to choose your identity. There is no peace, no resonance no oneness.

And then in that confusion, there is this emotion. It is like a massive wave that swallows you, and at that instant you feel nothing. There is no confusion because there is nothing. Just a slow, calm, deep breath. You do not have control over anything. You do not have control over your identity. You do not have an identity. Your skin is washed away by the wave and all that is left is a breath.

But we can’t do that forever. We can’t sit around in nothingness.

And in a moment, everything comes back to me in a rush of confusion. I fall nicely back into my illusion. My soft warm cocoon…

And I wait to be overwhelmed again.

List Rant... Whats Up?

I rarely update just out of the need to update, but its been a long time, and well even though I've sat down to write here on many an occasion, I just haven't been able to find anything interesting. So here is a list of stuff that might or might not interest you, but well I'm going to write them down anyway...

1. I'm in the middle of finals(exams) week. Can't stop thinking about switching out of dreaded engineering.... any ideas for a career path?

2. I have the most awesome mum dad Tara and shandy in the world. I'm itching to go back home and give them a hug.

3. It snowed the other day for the first time this winter, and that proceeded with an insane drop in temperature. Makes me appreciate the warmth of my room.

4. I have too much stuff in my room, but somehow, I end up needing all of it... that must be a genetic thing.

5. It has been a long long semester, and for the first time, I regret not knowing what to expect next year.

6. I miss being able to play basketball every night and being good at it. All I want to do right now is go to the gym and work on my jumper....

7. My ankle is up and running again, but it still hurts randomly. Wonder if it will ever be the same again.

8. Played tennis the other day. First time i've played all year. It reminded me how much I love the sport.

9. Which brings me to the Grandpa's advice of the blog-post-day: Even if you need to grind out your day, doing things that you need to do rather than things that you want to do, don't let go of your passions, and when you get a breather, spend some time doing things you want to do. It feels good :)

10. I realize that I have been single for the longest time. I've come to the point where I don't really see myself with anyone at all. I don't know whether I like being single or not... It can get lonely sometimes...

11. So much of what you do is where you are or need to be to do it. I don't want to distance myself from home, but what if I want to get out of the coop*? It's a scary thought, but can't help but think about it.

12. Which brings me to question... what qualifications does it take to become a statistician? Hmm.. what qualifications does it take to become a pro-league Referee?

13. The NBA is a melting pot of an insane number of stories and journeys... I've got to stop spending so much time on their blogs...

14. Sticking to fruit diets is very hard.

15. I am on twitter now... I never thought the day would come, but well, I'm riding the fad and lets see how it goes. I hate their 140 word limit though. It forces you to drop vowels and what not. I was inspired after following Shashi Tharoor's tweets. Although I contemplated getting in touch with Steve Nash as a legitimate skirmish, before I realized that even twitter cannot make that possible. Follow me here if you care to that is... and I will follow you, I think thats how it works.... *n()()b*

16. Coffee goes well with snow.

17. I really enjoy maths.... when I understand what the effin hell is going on.

18. Intellectual property rules are nullified when they are enforced upon you. I think its only fair to leave the decision of whether or not you would like to share your information with someone up to you-the owner of the content, and not to some third party board member rubbish.

19. Most of the bloggers that I started out blogging with have kind of faded away. So if you are reading this right now, and you see your blog on my blogroll, and you see that the last time you updated your blog was in 1935, click on your link, sign in, and UPDATE!!!

20. I have 3 exams in the next 5 days. I should get back to my books.


*Read The White Tiger. You will like it.