examotions

It's 5am, Sunday morning. 3 hours to go before the dreaded chem exam. I've been up all night studying. Seems like the perfect time to write an entry.

This week has been full of mixed emotions, and even though final exam fortnight is still not over, i feel the need to write down my emotions now.

Night before English Literature: pretty relaxed, still doing some poems. Last poem left. A Story of Lost Friends. I lie down on my bed, and begin reading.

Aah, this poem had made my night. I didn't finish reading it but i soo understood what Bond was trying to say. I felt it. Loneliness is horrible. To not belong to someone, to not be someone else's responsibility, is disheartening. Parents? They are guides, sometimes teachers, but not always. Friends, Siblings? They are comrades, sometimes teachers, but not always. Special friends? They are emotion communicators, interpreters and outputers (:P), sometimes teachers, but not always.
Nature, love, the soul, yourself. Common with all the formers. The constants. But there is still loneliness.

buzzing emotions that night.

Night before Physics: FRUSTRATION! missing notes, too many formulae, sleepless nights piling on. HATE! CONFUSION! ....lost.

Night before Computers: Aaah! excitement! restlessness! energy! passion! good feeling.... understanding.

After Computers exam..... imperfectness, regret, passion.

And here i am, 3 hours away from the chemistry exam. Time to get some sleep!